growing.

am I the only one who's indecisive about what she wants to be when she grows up? i used to think that, that was a bad thing, but now I'm not so sure. I'm a instructional associate teacher at a preschool, yet I don't have a degree in anything. I have classes under my belt that got me the job, but do I want to do this forever? no. so if I got a degree in this line of work, and didn't wish to continue, what would I do then? be stuck that's what. my whole life I've been really indecisive, my mom rolls her eyes at me daily for my inability to make decisions. making decisions gives me anxiety, what if I make the wrong one and be ..well stuck. it scares me. anyway I'm getting off track. or am I? I don't really know where I'm going with this post. sorry. all along I thought it was bad that I don't have a fancy degree or really have (as an almost twenty-one year old) the "life plan" that everyone who graduates high school now a days seems to have. it's not. deep down I've always known what I wanted to be when I "grew up" but being successful, having multiple degrees, and settling down when you're thirty seems to be more of the hype these days. but that life isn't for everyone, and it doesn't have to be. it's okay to march to the beat of a different drum. I want to be a mom. I want to have a big yard where I can have a garden, where my kids can play and explore, and where we can make memories. I want to see the world, one piece at a time, with my family, teach them to appreciate what's around them. the simple things in life. there's a mess of thoughts running through my mind and I feel like I'm not getting them out in the way I want, but long story short, I'm always learning, growing, aging. I don't think anyone really "grows up" lives change all the time, all lives are what you make them, none are wrong or right (to an extent). I'm happy with where I'm going, who I'm becoming, even if it may not be the norm to everyone around me.