getting things done.

i've felt like my days have been flying but yet also dragging on. my brain feels like it's moving so fast that i can't even think straight, my weekends fly by, and i'm always tired. i guess this is what growing up is. gross i know. i just haven't gotten the hang of it yet, that must be why adults drink coffee. today while nannying the kids both fell asleep at the same time (which never happens) and instead of reading, writing, or doing anything I bring to do in case this once in a while miricale happens, I turned on the tv and scrolled through pinterst. because i honestly feel like i don't have the energy to do anything else. wrong. i have the energy i just chose not to use it for the right things, because it's easier not to. when i look at the wife and mother and just person i hope to be in the future, it's someone who works hard, gets things done and feels accomplished at the end of the day. lately i haven't been being this person and I've blamed it on everything but myself. one of my new years resolutions was to be more accomplished & less lazy and i realized today that I haven't been doing a very good job of keeping up with that. but that's going to change. the nice part about having your birthday so close to the new year is that if you fail a little on your resolutions you can extend it to then. so i've got nine days.